You will only know who to trust when you lose everything.

"They say that the eyes are the windows to the soul."

I'm always wondering why do some people look unapproachable when I look at them. I don't know if I'm judging. But sometimes I feel that the eyes can really show something about someone. Tells a lot..

No more paper!

And with that, I officially end my UOL exams for my Year 2 in SIM.
I got a shock this morning when my alarm rang and my heart skipped a beat cos I thought that I had to wake up to study. Fuck. The happiest feeling was to realise that exams are finally over and I can laze back onto my comfy bed. ❤

Life is so blissful now. Lets worry about the results when they come okay? ^.^

Thinking back, I guess this year's the most STRESSFUL year ever! I guess no one would know but I never forced myself this way, to this extent. It may be normal to most people, but I just can't get myself to sit down and start being all serious. I get sleepy so easily! Sigh.

Anyway... it's over Ann. Stop thinking about those....horrible memories.

Now with approximately 4 months of free time on hand, I have no idea what to do. Wanted to fill in my resume but seems like no one is interested in Accounts Assistant for 3/4 months. Can't play much, have to save money. Speaking of which I really wonder when I can finally have my own bike.................... Sigh.

On a brighter note, bros and gfs were really awesome, not to mention my happy pill! Despite the lack of time I never felt that I was really alone by myself. And thisssssss, makes me really blessed. Sometimes I wonder what will I do if I didn't have people like them around me. :(

The society's dead.

Some people just love to see you fall, don't they?

So what is friendship based on?

People say it's being there for one another. Sounds so nice but not everyone feels that you are actually being there even if you think you are. Lol. Maybe it's 'seemingly being there for one another'.

You always stressed how important friendships are to you and how much trust you put in them. I am honoured to be one of the few. But I didn't know your stand on friendship is so fragile. You always want people to be there, churning out your list of expectations for a genuine friend and all, but have you ever asked yourself if you were one of your trusted friends, can you YOURSELF fulfill all the requirements that you stated for them?

Dude I am human. I have my own priorities and I don't think that being physically there or even meeting up often is a criteria in strong friendships. I know who matters and I know very well who I matter to. And even if I fly them aeroplane 100 times or they fly me aeroplane 1000 times we still know very well that it doesn't even affect the friendship. Why? Because we understand one another.

I'm not saying I'm not guilty of it. But whenever I apologised you give me the cold shoulder, and I still keep thinking that you haven't been accepting my apology since then. You just left it hanging like that. So what does that make you? A friend who doesn't spare a thought for my feelings and so I should reconsider whether to give you a chance to be my friend? I don't even have that thought yo, it's too silly.

You think you know everything bro? When we were a clique and people dissed you behind your back did you know I didn't join in? Did you know I was mocked because I helped you? Did you know I was called hypocrite because I didn't want to choose sides? Do I have to tell you everything about what I did to claim credit so that you will know how "BRO" I am? Come on lah. Friendship isn't something you can just treat like a checklist. There are so many things you can't explain or list out. And if you still want to base your criteria of friendships theoretically like a stupid textbook, then I can guarentee you that you will never find a perfect friend. I'm not trying to salvage anything, just for you to think about it when you have nothing better to do.

Of course you can treat it as bullshit.

And please, I really can't tolerate people having a problem and not telling me, AND talking about it in front of me, like I'm stupid! If you wanna do it, do it somewhere I can't see. If you can't, then you can lock me out of your life just like how you did once.

I'm not trying to quarrel with you. I'm just a weeny bit disappointed of how you establish friendships. And how weak is ours. That's all.

Oh and, even trying to get 'people' who have no idea about our friendship to give you advice on how to settle your own friendship problems? Now that's disappointing too.

Other than that, good luck to all your friendships.