If there is one word I can use to try and explain what makes me love bikes, the word would be: Freedom.
Thursday, January 31, 2013
Monday, January 28, 2013
A letter
From a friend who left us 2 years ago. A primary school friend whom I decided to write a random letter to after we got posted to different secondary schools. Been 2 years but the scenerio of receiving news of his death I can still recall clearly. His mum crying at his wake. My primary school friends sitting together. All of us just shocked upon knowing one of us is gone..
And it made me realise that life is really so fragile... People can be gone in an instance. News of people involved in accidents just happen everyday, to us they are just streams of news and reports, we feel pitiful for some and then get on with our lives, as if nothing has happened. But what if, just what if, one day, one of these "news" are actually people who are in our lives?
Several times I hear my friends getting into bike accidents and such, and it's really scary to even imagine losing any of them, like what happened to Eugin. Sometimes there is nothing we can do to avoid things like that from happening, which is why I always thought that if given a day to live, try and make the best out of it. Do things which you long to do, tell someone you love them, make birthday cards, celebrate festives, gather together, etc etc. Every single day is a day for you to do something. Don't waste it.
Going to visit Eugin this Sunday. :)
Thursday, January 17, 2013
Stay true, stay you.
"Let the world know you as you are, not as you think you should be, because sooner or later, if you are posing, you will forget the pose, and then where are you?" ~Fanny Brice
I always believed in going for your own dreams and goals. No one can tell you that it's wrong or right, other than yourself. If you believe in it, go for it. Strangely, people always say that we live for ourselves, but when we try and work hard for it, they want you to stop 'dreaming' and just do what what THEY think YOU should do. I don't always shut these people off totally, especially when they are close to me. I do actually put myself in their shoes and understand why they say things like that. But sometimes, I just want to do things for myself, not for others.
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
Are you satisfied with the life you're living?
I am currently sitting in the Lego shop with nothing to do. So I decided to feed my empty blog. I had the whole time to customize the blog template and all. Basically, I am really bored. While adding in links to my sidebar, I thought that I can at least link a couple of blogs that I usually visit. And in the end, I can't link any. The blogs that I used to always visit are now either put to rot, or are made private. And I don't blame them too. I guess it happens. Somehow as we grow, we tend to bottle things up more, show less, and not let people know what we are really feeling. I used to bare my heart out online. But as I grow and learn that people do ACTUALLY judge you without knowing everything, I get scared of being honest. We all do.
It's not a bad thing to be hiding honest thoughts at times. Neither does it mean that someone is wrong for being honest. Some time ago I got criticized for being too blunt, or some say insensitive. Maybe it's me. But I don't think that saying out what you really think/feel at that point of time is wrong. Yes, that thinking may be wrong. But the action of conveying your thoughts into words is purely being honest. Is it wrong? Just recently, I saw a friend of mine getting criticized again because he bared his thoughts out on Twitter. And apparently people weren't happy with his thoughts and chided him. He surprisingly didn't give in despite the uproar, and that was really admirable.
Few years back, someone told me to go with the flow. If the river flows in a certain direction, you don't oppose it. You go with it. I took it and subsequently, I learnt to keep things to myself and just follow the crowd. But I wonder... What if that direction isn't where you want to go? If everyone goes with the flow, why live? Where people tend to say that we are all uniquely different, why are some so afraid to hold back themselves and just go with the flow? Those words, are what shaped up the current Singapore. And it's stupid. Really stupid.
I can actually portray myself in a few years' time, and what I will be doing. Not really exact but the type of industry, the kind of work, and the kind of people I'll be interacting with. I have no anticipation. I have no interest. I have no motivation. I am scared that in time to come, I will be exhausted from all these routine work and lose all the drive in me someday, and just do what is being told without questioning authority. Why am I trying to study so hard for something which doesn't attract me OTHER THAN monetary benefits? The reason why I am still trying to get a degree isn't because I want the money, it's because I know money is important, as much as I would like to deny. And that is the only reason why I am still burying my head under the books... At times I do actually respect people who do ARTS/Music because typically in Singapore, people will condemn that having these qualifications will not make you rich. This may be stereotypical, but I find people who do Arts/Music are usually people who are happier with their lives. :)
I believe everyone wants to break their repetitive routine everyday.. But sometimes we just spend a few minutes thinking about it, then give up and deem impossible simply because, this is the direction that the river is flowing... and we are told not to go against the current. We have a life but we are not living it. Isn't that a sad thing?
It's not a bad thing to be hiding honest thoughts at times. Neither does it mean that someone is wrong for being honest. Some time ago I got criticized for being too blunt, or some say insensitive. Maybe it's me. But I don't think that saying out what you really think/feel at that point of time is wrong. Yes, that thinking may be wrong. But the action of conveying your thoughts into words is purely being honest. Is it wrong? Just recently, I saw a friend of mine getting criticized again because he bared his thoughts out on Twitter. And apparently people weren't happy with his thoughts and chided him. He surprisingly didn't give in despite the uproar, and that was really admirable.
Few years back, someone told me to go with the flow. If the river flows in a certain direction, you don't oppose it. You go with it. I took it and subsequently, I learnt to keep things to myself and just follow the crowd. But I wonder... What if that direction isn't where you want to go? If everyone goes with the flow, why live? Where people tend to say that we are all uniquely different, why are some so afraid to hold back themselves and just go with the flow? Those words, are what shaped up the current Singapore. And it's stupid. Really stupid.
I can actually portray myself in a few years' time, and what I will be doing. Not really exact but the type of industry, the kind of work, and the kind of people I'll be interacting with. I have no anticipation. I have no interest. I have no motivation. I am scared that in time to come, I will be exhausted from all these routine work and lose all the drive in me someday, and just do what is being told without questioning authority. Why am I trying to study so hard for something which doesn't attract me OTHER THAN monetary benefits? The reason why I am still trying to get a degree isn't because I want the money, it's because I know money is important, as much as I would like to deny. And that is the only reason why I am still burying my head under the books... At times I do actually respect people who do ARTS/Music because typically in Singapore, people will condemn that having these qualifications will not make you rich. This may be stereotypical, but I find people who do Arts/Music are usually people who are happier with their lives. :)
I believe everyone wants to break their repetitive routine everyday.. But sometimes we just spend a few minutes thinking about it, then give up and deem impossible simply because, this is the direction that the river is flowing... and we are told not to go against the current. We have a life but we are not living it. Isn't that a sad thing?
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Andddddd I decided to come back to blogger to spam my thoughts. Hi guys... regardless of whethere there are people reading or not... That doesn't really matter for now. (But actually my Nuffnang is gonna cash out liao BUT it needs just... a few more bucks... Hehe.) BUT I didn't start blogging again because of a few bucks. I digress.
With the sudden intrusion of social networks i.e. Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, almost all thoughts/feelings can be posted instantly either through text or a simple picture. I guess that must be the reason why I MIA-ed from Blogger for such a long period of time. I decided to remove all my archive from this blog since... 2008? Can't bear to delete them though, they are years of memories.. So I kept them in my personal blog which I suppose a few would know.
I still feel that all those Twitter/Facebook updates can't be compared to a post where you sit down and really 'pen down' your thoughts in full. You know, it's like point form versus paragraph. Sometimes when things happen, I actually have the urge to blog about it rather than just tweeting about it and forget about whatever significant incident which happened to spark up some emotions in me after awhile. I feel like somehow, I still love to blog. I hope I find time for it though...
Other than that, life has been quite mundane, quite boring, quite busy, quite tiring. But I'm still a happy girl everyday. I learnt a little through friendships which were formed and then lost during this period. It made me realise many things. But most importantly, life still goes on. If people don't cherish a friendship for whatever reason, let it be then. I used to think that losing a friend is a bad thing. But now, it may be a blessing in disguise.
Majority of the peeps whom I hang out with are now serving NS. Of course, some drift and some friendships are now even more precious through NS. You can clearly see who are the ones making efforts to keep the friendship going. And for that, I really appreciate it. :)
With the sudden intrusion of social networks i.e. Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, almost all thoughts/feelings can be posted instantly either through text or a simple picture. I guess that must be the reason why I MIA-ed from Blogger for such a long period of time. I decided to remove all my archive from this blog since... 2008? Can't bear to delete them though, they are years of memories.. So I kept them in my personal blog which I suppose a few would know.
I still feel that all those Twitter/Facebook updates can't be compared to a post where you sit down and really 'pen down' your thoughts in full. You know, it's like point form versus paragraph. Sometimes when things happen, I actually have the urge to blog about it rather than just tweeting about it and forget about whatever significant incident which happened to spark up some emotions in me after awhile. I feel like somehow, I still love to blog. I hope I find time for it though...
Other than that, life has been quite mundane, quite boring, quite busy, quite tiring. But I'm still a happy girl everyday. I learnt a little through friendships which were formed and then lost during this period. It made me realise many things. But most importantly, life still goes on. If people don't cherish a friendship for whatever reason, let it be then. I used to think that losing a friend is a bad thing. But now, it may be a blessing in disguise.
Majority of the peeps whom I hang out with are now serving NS. Of course, some drift and some friendships are now even more precious through NS. You can clearly see who are the ones making efforts to keep the friendship going. And for that, I really appreciate it. :)
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